Living Life: What's on the other side?

Saturday afternoon and here I am chillin' on the couch, listening to my preset 'Plant/Page' station on Pandora.  I have been flying solo this past week. Mary left for California to visit her sister and her partner. The girls are with their other sister and presumably their father...who knows. He seems to have a main interest in his ego and a girl named...??? I don't remember her name and I don't really care to. No worries. I just think his girls should be his priority and they are not. I know this all too well...I am so blessed to have my daughter back in my life after abandoning her for something else; my addictions.

I would like to take a moment and talk about this. I have just recently reconnected with my Alicia. It has been a long and winding road. We went through a tough period, her and I. My addictions nearly cost my a beautiful and wonderful daughter. She has been brave enough to trust again and I have been given strength through family and a rediscover of inner faith and self awareness to allow me be sober and a willingness to accept that within my life, the only way for me, is sobriety.

I understand there are many types of addiction. Mine is alcohol, for others it may be heroin, prescription drugs, gambling, pornography, etc.

It has been brought to my attention that Ty, (the father of Mary's children), has a perceived addiction to pornography. I say 'perceived', because his girls busted him with magazines and this is not acceptable to them. Mary has also confirmed this and has told me this was a major thorn in their marriage. I have to say after Mary confirmed this with me, it solidified the girls accusations.

I only mention this because it adds to the end result of a failed marriage and one addiction, as I know, leads to others. Especially, when the addicted feels like he/she is getting away with it. (We are sneaky bastards)

Also, I understand that drug use, on certain levels such as smoking pot as a recreational drug, for me, I don't have a problem with. I have many friends who smoke marijuana on a regular basis in recreating. They are active, have families, discrete, it's not a wake and bake scenario, they are active members in their communities, have wonderful careers, they are responsible parents, exercise, recreate in our mountains, valleys, deserts and waters here in Utah. They are in great health and are mindful of their finances and fiscal responsibilities to their families and business'. So, I understand recreating with pot and using it as a lifestyle supplement.

On the other hand, I can't think of one other drug (except alcohol and I will discuss that later) that could be used recreationally.  Crank, crack, lsd, cocaine, and other synthetic drugs are just poison.

So here is the next crux...my daughter..she is either going to shit her nickers or accept me...i am assuming the latter...damn kids...

(if your reading this and you are my family, don't judge me)

OK, keep things in moderation. Serious, smoke a bowl with your friends...make tacos and toke a little more, have a night cap and go to bed....

Don't smoke weed all day and night...don't drink all day and night...in fact, don't drink at all...smoke a little hoobie with your spouse or your mates or alone...then watch a little tv then go to bed....this is not a ritual to be practiced every night....go for walks, help your kids with homework, take the dog out, sneak away from work an hour early and set a fly on a nearby river...

I will continue this later...stay strong, clean and sober...your family will love you for it.